This
is a story about a moment in time, a great moment some 15 years ago. But
to explain its significance, I have to go back even further.
My
first trip to Australia was back in 1980. I was with my wife and first
child. I was disappointed by not being able to find a proper job. A year
later, we reluctantly decided to go back to Lebanon.
In
Lebanon, I got a good job almost immediately, and was lucky enough to be
able to re-rent the house we previously occupied. We loved that house.
It was on a small hill overlooking all Beirut and the coast. Few people
in Lebanon are lucky enough to live in houses with some land; most live
in apartment blocks.
A
few months later, specifically June 1982, Israel invaded Lebanon. By
then, we had a new baby. My wife and I decided to leave home and seek
refuge at my parents’ place in Tripoli (north Lebanon, which was
relatively safer).
After
a few more months of turmoil and moving from one place to another, we
finally went back home again. We were extremely delighted to go back.
Those
were some of the most tormenting months in my life. Tripoli at that time
was under the Muslim fundamentalists.
When
my wife and I could see no end to this, we decided to leave Lebanon and
go to Australia. To do that, we had to go to Beirut (which has the only
airport in Lebanon). While we were there, we decided to go to our house
on the hill and see how things were.
We
were again very glad to see this house. We hadn’t been there for more
than a year. The situation seemed peaceful enough. So we decided to
soldier on and cancel the travel plans to Australia.
Within
a couple of weeks, the civil war in Lebanon started to take another
turn. The beautiful hill on which we lived and which was ‘safe’
turned into a battleground. We fled again, this time to Beirut, and
rented a filthy, small, and very expensive furnished apartment. We lived
there for nearly a year. When finally that particular part of Beirut
turned into a battleground in February 1984, we had to flee to Tripoli
again. At that time I lost my job. We stayed with my parents for 5
months.
Within
a couple of weeks, the calm was broken by the occasional sounds of
sniper bullets, followed by more frequent skirmishes with machine guns.
Then the inevitable happened. Shells started falling, and we would run
with our babies to a shelter. Luckily, most of the shelling was a bit
distant. When I say distant, I am talking about a few hundred meters,
not kilometers.
Until
one day, as we were hiding in the shelter like worthless beings, a 120
mm mortar shell fell extremely close. We heard the shrapnel hitting the
thick limestone walls of our shelter. Our next-door neighbors were all
with us in our little shelter, as their house didn’t have one.
Luckily, no one was hurt. It was late at night, and as the power had
been cut, we couldn’t see much, except that all windows were broken.
The
next morning, during a lull in the madness, we walked outside to see the
aftermath. We found a huge hole in our neighbors’ ceiling (the same
neighbors who were sheltering with us); there were fragments of the
shell, broken glass, smashed flower-pots, and pieces of brick and rubble
all over the place. The whole landscape was covered with dust. It was
all the same color, the ugly color of dust. It was one of the most
depressing scenes you could ever imagine.
In
the midst of all this, as I was cleaning up somewhat, I beheld a scene
which turned the whole picture around. Among the many plants we grew in
our garden was a morning-glory plant. As you know, the morning-glory
flowers open in the morning and close for the rest of the day. Totally
indifferent to what had gone on around it the night before, the
morning-glory plant had produced new, fresh, clean, bright, beautiful,
and colorful flowers. In the middle of the filth and rubble, and while
the leaves of the morning-glory plant were covered with dust too, those
flowers were the only things with color.
My
mood changed from extreme sadness to extreme joy. I showed those flowers
to my wife and the whole neighborhood. To my wife, they meant hope. To
others, they meant nothing at all. To me, they not only meant hope, they
also meant that no matter what happens around you, no matter how much
filth is thrown on you, keep doing the right thing and be beautiful. I
then started to take a different look at the name of the flower
(morning-glory) and the concept of "morning." What a glory did
those flowers bring to that morning and every other morning. In most
days, they go unnoticed, I thought. I then wondered, isn’t every
morning a new beginning? Isn’t every morning glorious?
It
was at that moment that we decided to stop clinging to Lebanon and our
house and move on. A few days later, we were in Australia.
I
took photographs of that scene, but they can never express the true
meaning of that scene.
That
morning-glory plant was one of my great Dharma teachers. Every time I
see a morning-glory plant now, I look at it, smile and say thank you.
Some
times, I get asked what made me come to Australia, and occasionally I
say a morning-glory flower.